God at least let the results out soon!

I have given so many tests/exams in my life so far, than I care to remember. Yet the one given yesterday was something different… being examine and an examiner was quite an experience. But, again not for the first time, I am waiting for the result with battered breath.

I remember my 8th grade final exams, as that was the first time I was nervous about the result(ok, not the first time, but undeniably the only time I cared!). I know I didn’t do well in 2 of the papers and was wondering whether I need to do the year again. I had kept all the books safely, was not interested in playing through the vacation and was basically praying day in and day out to pass. Belive me it was quite a feeling when I got the result. Sometimes I pity the guys who never have to go through such kind of emotions.

Trust me; I never went through the same feeling there-after, until yesterday, which prompted me to write this. But the only difference is that, this time around I am confident that I had done it well. At least no obvious screw-ups! God! the same old feeling! Same old thoughts! Butterflies all round. Seeing the same thing any where I turn. Not able to concentrate on anything (else). Its killing me… Why just not know the result? Honestly I (may) not suffer even if I fail. In fact (again, I may) feel happy, as the clouds have passed. But the delay? Shit it makes me tense. I can feel my heart pounding right in front of my eyes, my hands shaking as I type this. It’s been 2 days since I slept (not sure how many sleep the day before an important exam. I don’t). Not sure when I will be able to!

So what now? Back to prayers (what else?). But this time around I am not sure what to ask for, what to hope for. Since the ball is in their court now, all I can do is keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best. But what is ‘the best’? Com’on, had I known that I would have prayed for that.

God at least let the results out soon!