falling in love

I have read many texts that talk of ‘falling in love’. Some of my friends keep raving about it. Add to that the number of romantic and not so romantic movies that I have seen. And then, of course the dreams…

But none had prepared me to face one! I was helpless when THE moment came. The first sight. gosh!! What to say? It sent a shrill through my veins. Top to bottom. No text’s or movie dialogues came to my rescue. Nor did the numerous number of sequences that I had dreamt of.

I think my name was asked. Not sure what I answered.

Every think went blank. No one else was seen. I was just a bundle of nerves. That's a gross understatement. The situation belted the shit out of me.. Still an understatement. Heart was pounding damn fast, more than double of what happens with a very strenuous workout (yea, I do them, some-times!). It was tough keeping my emotions in check. I didn’t want to act stupid in front of all those people. Not sure whether I succeeded, most likely not, but still euphoric. Yea, seems strange, but thatz the fact. Being in this situation is much better than never being there at all. A pleasure, ecstasy and bliss with a tinge of pain. Unique experience. All those who never experienced this may wonder, ‘what the heck?’ I feel sorry for those guys.

Now I am waiting anxiously for the response. Yea, of all the crazy thing I did, one sane act was to tell her what I felt. Always thought that was the toughest part, but strangely waiting for the response can be equally taxing, especially when you know that there is some chance.